RESERVE OFFICER TRAINING UNIT (ROTU)

All is well...
that wat i'm supposed to think...
but lately i always remembered about my own past...
and it is something that really make me uncomfortable...
dreaming n keep dreaming about my bad n shit thing during past time, just like taking poison...
cannot sleep, think, concentrate, also make me damnn tired...
the thing is why these things happen to me????

R there somethng that i did past time??
somtig bad o worst???
but  just remembered the bad and worst about my past...
i tried 2 forget it but failed....
keep chasing me like i'm the criminal that been looking by the police
ouhhhh pleased leave me alone!!!!
i wan to get my mood n concentration back...
if not  will loose too many things around me...
pleased pleased i begging u my past!!!

u know because of u i be like the crazy man, talk o my self, sudden screaming , be a loopy o lumpy at sudden... sometime always angry without reason...
wat the f..k...
my fren alway ask me why but i just keep it as big smile n say nothng...

sometime i made a joke or kidding around to released o leave behind my brain wall
so i could forgeting u a while.
but it cannot help me that much bcse wen the night comes u may come back n threaten me as well...
any ones could help??